Love life questions?

Hi friends, today I am writing about a lingering question and heart ache I have in my current relationship. I do not think me and boyfriend talk a lot and he likes to spend time with his friends. He said he makes "reservations for me" and then sets aside days to hang out with his friend and we barley talk the whole day. I hate that I am considered a "reservation." That I am only a scheduled time to talk or that I have to split my time between his friends. It sounds irrational but I feel like he has the opportunity to hangout with them all day and he at least has time for the night to talk to me. Instead I will be alone. and for the rest of my life. I accept I am alone and I live with it. I do not know if i am being to clingy or that if I am crazy for wanting to just talk more. And we have had this argument before and he still does not listen and chooses to be with his friends. I think he can go 3 days without talking to me and just snap. No talking or physical interactions. But it hurts because i know he is the only person i can talk to and that i have no friends to talk on the regular basis. Mostly because i am very independent. i hate that i am crying like a baby but it really hurts. If i am being crazy then i would like a universal sign.